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So I gotta say this was a pretty epic week for me ^_^

- Abilify has been added to my drug plan \o/ there was no way I could afford to take it, which is why my doctor had been sampling me until now. And with a fresh supply of pills I've been noticing positive results again.

If that wasn't great enough I give you this:

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Oh Yes! That is none other than Martha Jone's Jacket which came in on Tuesday from Abbyshot I'm 100% thrilled with the cut and fit ^_^

And finally

- Progress on Berlin, last time to yesterday.

It doesn't feel like the home stretch yet, but I'm getting there.

I've been on Abilify for 3 weeks now and the positive reaction I had at the beginning is still there it just hasn't got any stronger [still fades in the early afternoon] I'll take what I can get and hope that it gets better the longer I'm on it. And besides one day of serious agitation I haven't noticed any adverse side effects.

Doctor Who is back \o/
- I was a little disappointed at first, just didn't feel quite right to me, but as always my show surprised me *flails* and filled me with *squee*
- Love, love LOVE! the Doctor's new coat!

Less than a month until my uncle's wedding, which means I need to find something to wear. Am not a fan of shopping in any form, but I have found a couple of shirts I'd like to at least try on, I'm set for dress pants.

First is from Suzy Shier and the second is Rickis

Is rather unlikely I'll be able to find them in store or that they'll look good on me ^_~ but they're worth looking into.

And here's another update on Murphy. [August 16th and today]

To say I'm exhausted is an understatement.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about up and stopping all medications that I'm taking, other than frustration I don't see that their doing anything for me.

*sigh*

I realize this would ultimately be a bad idea [really makes it no less tempting at this point]

I mentioned a little while back that I was on a new medication, not sure if I mentioned its name, it's called Zeldox, and its been causing me more aggravation than anything else lately. Unfortunately to be in any way effective it's required to be taken with food [not because it might upset the stomach, but because it's only half as effective--which is only 60% to begin with in pill form--without food] this wouldn't be as much of an issue if I had an appetite.

Thank you Concerta! it utterly kills my appetite, so I can feel myself 'crashing' but with thought of eating completely repulsive there isn't a bloody thing I can do to change that....not that if/when I can take the Zeldox the results last beyond a couple of hours.

I truly hate my body's ability to metabolize medications, this is the real core reason why nothing really works for me...and there isn't a fucking thing I can do to change that.

*fist shake*

Been close to a month since I last posted, I'd really hoped I might be ale to share some positive progress with everyone. But the way I'm feeling right now doesn't encourage it. *raises hand* can I just sleep for the next month or so? and pick up again after?

A month ago I started a new medication along with the Prozac and Concerta, the Doctor thought there might be merit in trying to treat the Asperger's along with the depression. We've tired either or, but never both together. I think there is definitely good happening, but I'm having a hard time seeing it right now with the way I'm feeling.

Happily this new medication hasn't effected my creativity [such as it is] with cross-stitching. I am pleased to share my first finish of 2011 with all of you. I give you, Paris


I gave Paris to Wendy on Tuesday ^_^ she was beside herself to see the finished product, and I can't tell you how happy I was to deliver it!

o9 <-- *fist shake* thank you Shuffles ^_^

I'm starting to realize that about every other week--maybe a little more, that would be nice--or so I can expect to have a very bad day.

Concerta has certainly helped with the depression and I really don't minded the weight loss either. But there are days when part of my body is telling me that I should really eat something more substantial than I normally do in a day.

I hate days like this, 'cause I can also be sure that there isn't a bloody thing on the planet that I'd actually want to eat. I keep trying to think of something but fail, which leads to some serious frustration. So my brain just goes round and round, I don't know about other people but I've never been able to force myself to eat something I didn't want. *shudder*

Will I stop taking Concerta because of this? No, if this was an everyday thing that'd be different.

*sigh*

This writer's block is really starting to make me doubt that I'll ever be able to write again. I was really hoping that today without the cross-stitching I'd be able to sit down and finally get some writing done...it's been well over a month for me. I haven't had any luck today not even with a prompt from Shuffles.

I've thought of a couple of things but they've never made it past the initial idea either it doesn't spark enough for me or I ask myself what's the point? I already know that there are readers who would enjoy anything but I just can't seem to get anywhere. And worse yet, I don't really feel much like writing...I really want this to change, I need it to change. I miss writing!

I really Really hope not, but I'm beginning to wonder if this block is a side effect of the meds, wouldn't be the first time this happened but I don't think it feels quite like the Celexa

As promised here is the picture of Dex completely finished!


Oh and as an added bonus for you neekabe I have some pictures of Wendy's new story. It's so wonderfully huge! And the most amazing part is, this is all the stuff that they had in the old store. They were really crammed in there tight.


I though the Avid Reader was an amazing store back in its original home, but this is perfect! Love the little fireside lounge too that just makes it.


Look they have sunlight now! or they would if it wasn't raining out and you can see Jules waving ^_^


I think I'd really love to work there! I'm not really one for wanting to work so closely with the customers but I do love Wendy she's got a cheerful personality. She one of those people who you can't help but be cheerful when you're around her. I could use all the cheering I can get.