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I've been meaning for awhile now to post something again, beyond just the 'Hey look! I'm not dead!'... but not even including that, I draw a blank, for exciting things to say. And if I think too long about anything I've typed 9/10 times I end up deleting it, which is more than a little frustrating. But if I've learned anything, it's that my mind is a very strange place. So here are a few things, hopefully a 'point form-ish' format will make this easier.

Thing the First: On a rather sudden impulse I purchased an ipod touch.
- didn't need anything huge, so to save money I went with a Refurbished 8GB directly from Apple.
- Quite frankly, best impulse buy ever! Although I rarely use it for listening to music.
- Named him: 'That's a Good Question' as that's the first thing my brother said when I asked him what the name should be.
- Trying to get a silicone case for Thatzie [either that or TaG-Q for short] bought one at Best Buy, I was told--after showing the associate Thatzie--that the case in question would fit. No real surprise to me, it didn't so back I will go, hopefully to get a slightly more expensive case for the same price for my troubles.

Thing the Second: Cross-stitching projects have been slow going, due to my weird and finicky brain....seriously how can I expect other's to understand me, when even I don't.
- I think it's safe to say I won't have my pattern for Ome Jan and Joachim done before November 4th but Alwin assured me that would be alright.
- Here have a picture...


Thing the Third: depression's been relapsing [for lack of a better term] I'm still hopeful that it's just stress and not 'medications have stopped working' but I'm beginning to think it is.

For now, that is all.

At last I have my update for Ome Jan and Joachim, my brain insisted that I approach this part of the pattern a little differently.

so here you go

First picture taken June 9th and I finished Joachim's face today.

that is all.

I've recently been struggling with a brain--whose first response is to say 'What's the point?'--when faced with any question. As un-fun as that has been, that question quickly spirals into the thought of 'What's the point of anything?' which is really kind of depressing.

One of the big things I just can't see a point in, is posting to any of my journals [not including update post for the cross-stitch community] 'cause of this I'm going to let my lj paid account laps, I really can't justify paying for it or any of them right now. [I should say--considering past post--that this has nothing to do with not hearing from friends, only that I really see no point in sharing my thoughts or plans. This may or may not change]

Beyond the stupidity of my current mind set at the moment, I've been trying to work on three of my current works in progress. Although I hate having deadlines when working, I've found that without a tentative goal I have a hard time settling on which project needs my attention most. So here's how he next couple of months ought to look.

Ome Jan - goal: finish by end of September so it can arrive in Holland before Nov. 4th

Murphy - goal: finished in time for my uncle's birthday late Nov.

Kiba 2.0 - goal: finished in time for Christmas if not sooner.

No doubt I'll pick up other patterns as I go but these will be my main three until one of them is done.

Other than stitching, I've been helping out an old man from the church. He wanted me to call him Ol'crusty, mum couldn't remember that the first time he called to speak to me, so she refer to him as Grumpy Curmugen [which he approves of ^_~] he needed someone to type up articles that he writes for a magazine that he used to put out and would like to again. I love typing and have far too much time on my hands so why not?

I met him downtown this morning to show him the first piece and make sure that everything was how he wanted it before giving him the final draft that would be sent out. Although I was alright with it at the time [he's a wonderful old man, great talker, excellent story teller] he's definitely more social than I am [which reminds me of a little rant I'll add at the end] Ol'crusty is on a first name basis with all the employees and it wasn't enough for us to just sit and talk, no he needed to introduce me to everyone.

Wasn't until I got home that I realized how much that situation bothered me, but despite that I'll go again tomorrow to deliver the final draft and collect more notes from him.

Rant - Why do people constantly feel that they need to change me? What is so wrong with being antisocial if I'm happy with it?! I'm continually met with people telling me I should get out more hang out with people I don't know and I've run out of ways to tell people I don't want any part in that. If you're not doing what makes them happy clearly you can't be yourself.

I am beyond tired of people making me feel like there's something wrong with me 'cause I'm more happy to be around family and a small circle of friends than a bunch of people I don't want to get close to. And unfortunately with a rant like this if I don't just stop all that will happen is I get more pissed off, something I can do without.

So that's it.

I have done it!

I've finished Whiskers for seregil \o/

Started: December 5th 2009
Finished: May 2nd 2010

This is huge! Not only is she my first finish of 2010 [here's hoping for many more!] but she was also the first pattern that I stitched where 100% of the picture was cross-stitched. Up until now my patterns have only been partial, letting the fabric show through.


So there you have it. I hardly know what to do with myself right now.

After taking a few minutes to let it all sink in, I brought out Kiba and put him back on a frame so I could continue work on him. Present top priority is Ome Jan though, since that pattern has a deadline and I want it finished well before.